Life is hard when you think too much

I was writing in English about why I chose that major and I erased it by mistake so let me try to remember it.

Well, I'm in the university, but then what? What is my next step supposed to be? I don't fucking know, really. I planned every step of my life till now and I have reached my goal but  I don't know what my next step should be because I don't know what I want.



I remember when I was in High School, I realized how great the human body is and I decided to study Medicine or Anatomy because I could learn everything about the mysterious human body but at Etology class, we opened a real brain and we were there for two hours, I couldn't stand the smell and in that moment I knew that medicine was not for me, I also don't like people (they are stupid). Then, I thought that Biology could be perfect because they see all the organisms and microorganisms and all the life inside of us without treating people. It was a good idea but when I started to mention the idea of studying biology to my family, they started to mention plants and the environment and the ecology thing, so I got used to to that concept of biology and I accepted it. So, my dream job became to work in a forest or jungle or any other place with plants and animals.

Then, I met Claudia (Joel's girlfriend) and she showed me some photos of the places she has visited, they were awesome places (and photos) and since that specific moment I realized that my dream job is a job that can help me travel around the world. I really love knowing all the meaning of the human life and plants but this is just for now, I don't know what is going to happen when I get old and I start needing money. I want to become someone important for the world. It doesn't mean that I want to work outside of Mexico but I would like to travel to all that magnificent cities and know more culture and people. Life is hard, this kind of thoughts make me feel like I'm not doing the correct things. 



Sometimes I think too much about my future life but then, I watch the pictures in my cell phone and everything seems to be pretty cute for me.

I'm going to enjoy my school so much. This is a good signal.